Thoughts of Children

Yes I know it has been too long since I posted. I am a terrible terrible person. Really I have had hardly enough time to breath. Let me tell you, I will be so extremely happy when summer break is here and not just because my kids will be home and I get to spend more time with them. That itself is a big reason because I love being with my kids and now that I am not in school I get bored during the day, Anyways back to what I was saying the other reason is the school work. I am so tired of it. My son who has some learning disabilities and whom we are trying to get back on an IEP so that he can receive the help he needs gets a crap load of homework. I mean he has a book report for reading, a science project for science, a research paper for writing, and a social studies project for social studies all need to be turned in by Monday. He was actually given an extension because his counselor Mrs. Hunter whom I absolutely love has been such an amazing advocate for him getting some modifications on his work. Still there is so much to do and so little time and my son, God bless his is very meticulous in his work which takes him extra long to do. In fact after I get off of here his research paper which has been written out I am now going to type up for him so he can work on and other project. I am exhausted just writing about it.

Well back to the world of fertility which has taken a big chunk out of my daily life. It is amazing exactly what we put our bodies through and the amount of times we do. I get asked why I would want to try again since already have children. Sometimes I feel self conscious because I know there are many women out there that have not yet had the opportunity to hold their own child in their arms where I have been triply blessed to do so. Maybe I am selfish and like the Disney character Sharpay (my daughter is watching High School Musical) I want more!!! I want to add to my wonderful blended family and unite them together. I always do I wanted to have more children and my first husband and I planned on trying again after my son Tristan had started school but life throws curve balls at you. Today is the 8 year anniversary of his death. It is hard to believe that he has been gone so long. I look at my husband Kevin now and realize what lucky person I am to have been blessed with two amazing men when some women don't even get one.

June 3rd is the official day that I will be PUPO!!!! I pray and hope that one or two of my little snowbabies stick