This journey can be a roller coaster ride of emotions and I will be brutally honest as I open my life through this blog in order to help others to better understand.

Thursday, November 3, 2011

2DP4DT

Is it just me or is the time just ticking by slowly?!?!?! So am now two days into my transfer and still not much to report. Not that I don't try to read into everything. I am still having cramping and hoping that it is a good but dreading that it is not. No urge to POAS yet but I am sure as the days go on that old feeling will return. I have been staring intently at my breasts. Now I am not vain (at least I don't think I am) and it is not like I have the small perky bouncy breasts of a 20 year old who has never had children. But I remember in my first cycle veins starting to pop especially around the aureole (Not going to say this is TMI because it is my blog and it is happening to my body besides it can be very informative for other women who think that they are going crazy during this wait). Unfortunately I didn't document my experiences then and not sure when it first was noticeable. Oh well as of right now sometimes I think the ta tas look different other times not so much. I know not much help but it is still very early.

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

1DP4DT

Well as you can imagine nothing much to report. I am on bed rest or as I like to say "Princess Status". I am getting a little stir crazy, laying here with my feet propped up and who knows what is going on with the rest of the house?!?!?! I know the kitchen must be a disaster but I am going to try and not think about it. I really think my left ovary is upset about this whole process because I went to turn on my side and got a terrible sharp pain there.At least it didn't last long.

Well like I said not much happening, just lots of prayers.

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Transfer Day..... Maybe

This is has been a hectic Halloween weekend and I just have not had the time nor the energy to write. Kids had a fall festival/trunk or treat on Friday, on Saturday Courtney had a Halloween Party and on Sunday we went over to Kev's mom's house for Family Home Evening. Lots of fun but no time for much of anything else.

Anyway I got my fertility report. Out of 21 eggs 17 were mature and 13 fertilized. Woo Hoo lucky number 13!!!! I said to the embryologist well that sounds good and he just said well they could still all die!!! Thanks for being my Debbie Downer. He also said there were some brown areas on some of my eggs but didn't explain what this could possibly mean, Thanks!!! So he goes on to say that he is scheduling me for a transfer Tuesday at 11:45 but it probably isn't going to happen because my Re had written on the paper Freeze ALL! What?!?!?! I asked why and he didn't know just to show up today and we will see what happens. Now since this all happened on Weekend I could not get in contact with my clinic since they are open on Weekends by appointment only. All weekend I worried, my Re never said anything about freezing them when we talked to him and I don't like being in the dark. So first thing Monday morning I called and there phones had not been switched on yet. At 8:17 AM I got through and left a message. 6 hours and 5 minutes later I finally got a call, (yes I was getting a little anxious). Evidently, if you remember I was too excited to get my E2level on trigger day. Well I guess it was over 3,000 and when it starts to get that high he sometimes feels it is better to freeze everything and do a Frozen transfer later because success rates could be better. Now it may not happen for sure because I guess I am in an iffy area, if my E2 had been over 5,000 then it would definitely happen. So basically we are going to get there and he is going to make a decision then. I don't know what he is going to base the decision on because he is not doing any blood tests. I have a feeling that it is not going to happen today and yes I am a little bummed but I am praying hard that it will so we will see.

To be continued......






....and the story continues


Well went in hoping for the best but prepared for a postponement. I mean every time before when I would go in for my transfer it didn't happen today. Usually slow growing  embryos, this time could be the E2 levels or who knows what. So I got there changed into my scrubs and was behind one other couple. As I am drinking my water I accidently dropped the bottle and spilt water all down my gown (can we say butterfingers) I had to change my gown and let me tell not easy going into bathroom when your bladder is screaming at you to pee! Shortly after I got changed the nurse said that they were readt for me!!!! What?!?!?!?! No RE coming telling me we should post pone this? surely this can't be real. They wouldn't actually take me back to the OR and then tell me would they??? I didn't think so since they would have to sterilize the room again.
Got in there put my legs in the tortuture room style stirrups and then the embryologist came in. I have to say he is much nicer and pleasant in person. The language barrier is much broader over the phone. So what would he have to tell me. Different scenarios flashed in an instant before my eyes one of course one that every woman going through this fears.. none of your embryos have made it. Instead he smiles, (is this a good sign or a sympathy smile) and says your embryos look really good this time and looks like we may have about 6 to freeze which could now go along with my one frozen embryo left over from my last fresh cycle. Of course I will get a full report and know more later as to how many were frozen which will be done either today or tomorrow. But two great looking embryos were put back into me and it amazing watching those bubbles appear on the ultrasound! The RE was very happy and gave me a good % for success but of course I know anything can happen but right now happy and PUPO with twins!!!!

I call tomorrow to schedule my Beta which is on 11/11/11 hmmmm??? Lucky numbers?? Maybe I should ask to have my Beta time at 11:00 AM I don't know though cuz I have to see what the cut off time is for getting the results the same day!

Let the 2 week wait begin!!!!!